leaving

it's never been so easy to allow myself to be left behind. i just don't do anything anymore. i stop fighting. i stop competing. i stop trying to prove myself to people who were never on my side to begin with. it's an odd psychology we have, to want to love most the people who... Continue Reading →

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A reason

I look around from my place at the breakfast table listening to the sound of the fan click as it passes the same certain point, hearing each note I type, the still drip of water. I see the faces of jam on my piece of toast. They're very worried today that or just unimpressed I... Continue Reading →

blasted thru

i face life each morning with a heart wide open, slashed and burned and born anew. God protect me from knowing it all from feeling it all before protect me from the arrogance of being self-assured keep me curious and questioning and seeking and always seeing wonder amid the malaise of a bored world. keep... Continue Reading →

the only option

To say that suicide is not the only option diverts from the real issue and only seeks to blame the person who chose suicide. What is needed is a conversation about why someone chooses that over life and then ask yourself what did I do to contribute to their view and experience of life that... Continue Reading →

talk

i've been thinking quite a bit about how we're all so bad about talking about what's really important. we avoid it like the plague. maybe, because talking about it challenges our views of ourselves, forces us to confront our own power and lack of initiative in changing things that should have been changed a long... Continue Reading →

leaves

just sitting here, searching for contentment. and i realize it's right there in that tree just blowing through yellow leaves that are turning deep green. i just sit here and realize i have already been immersed in a deep contentment because i can enjoy being right here, right now. and i can let that nagging... Continue Reading →

wind

i walked right into a really strong wind today. it had started off as a pleasant summer stroll, except it's only April but well global warming...and then as i'm rounding a street corner and coming over the hill a gust rose up to meet me. unexpected and i kept walking and about 30 minutes later... Continue Reading →

elaborate

Elaborate oh my goodness this is a good one. i always feel so miffed that no one understands me but then i honestly have to ask myself, ummm girl, did you actually take the time to elaborate about yourself before coming to that conclusion? and most of the time i did not. i just don't... Continue Reading →

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