does anyone else out there, always get the guilt for the stupidest reasons? like today, i didn’t go to church and am now relaxing and blogging and i feel this overwhelming guilt. maybe i have a hyper-conscience.

but maybe, it’s only how i allow myself to feel? i struggle with my OCD and actually i don’t really like calling it mine, it’s just OCD and some days it really sucks. other days i can use it as a medium to feel more empathy for those around me. but some days it’s just a straight-jacket and paralyzes me from doing anything because anything is always the wrong choice. so nothing becomes the only thing i can do, i am “allowed” to do.

it’s easy to not want to let my mind control me, be the master of me, but it’s so hard to not let it do that.